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Today, I maintained the integrity of my maintenance calorie budget, I remained abstinent from refined sugar, I exceeded my daily minimum 64oz water goal,

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Sunday, 30 November 2014

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November 30th, 2014 PJ's Insight Clicks

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November 30th, 2014 PJ's Insight Clicks

PJ Geek provided some wonderful insight into what may have triggered yesterday's struggle. She writes in her comment:

"This may sound weird but I'm pretty sure there is some scientific truth to it. My therapists and I explored this , so I will give you the benefit of a few hours of therapy I've had. I like to go to casinos (strictly small time slots but also roulette in the old days) but don't go to casinos but maybe once a year. That is a good thing. I think the part of the brain triggered by gambling -even gambling for charity- is the same part of the brain that gets triggered with compulsive food behaviors. I'm not sure what came first the gambling or the food thoughts, so I could be wrong. But just wanted to put this out there for future reference."


I honestly didn't think about this being the connection, but it makes perfect sense. The gambling came first and even though it was for charity, the highs and lows of it all where still present--and just enough to awaken that side of my brain that says give me more!! I couldn't identify exactly why I was feeling weak with struggle and then I read her comment and it clicked. Sometimes the most obvious answer is the hardest to recognize! Thank you, PJ, for adjusting my perspective! PJ Geek has a wonderful blog, too! Give her a visit here.

I made it through yesterday by reaching out for some much needed spot support and by evening I was feeling perfectly fine again. I slept exceptionally well for nearly nine hours last night. I awoke today feeling confident and on solid ground.

I prepared a good breakfast and made plans for a great workout followed by lunch and a movie out with my oldest daughter and her fiance. I finished up my workout at the YMCA this afternoon with twenty minutes to spare before they were scheduled to pick me up for the outing. I raced home, showered, shaved and got dressed in under 15 minutes. I was moving!

I've been reading the owners manual for my NordicFlex and tonight I started using it. Literally every muscle in the body can be worked with this machine. I'm not sure this machine is the best option for me right now. That's too bad, because it's in my spare bedroom--and that's convenient. I may start with the weights at the YMCA instead. Mainly because I need to build up my right arm strength to match my left.

My right arm is different from my left because it was broken when I was born--and it healed back incorrectly. The arm is shorter than my left and isn't as flexible. I've naturally used it much less than my left over the years, so naturally there's always been a major imbalance. I've been told over and over that this will correct with time and to use the same weight on both arms until the right naturally catches up. It's only something I'll fully get when I do it, kind of like how I always heard what a difference maker cutting out sugar could be--but wasn't fully convinced it was for me until I honestly tried--and then I was a 1000% believer.

My resistance to a committed weight training regimen is rooted in this "weak-side" issue. It truly isn't just my arm--it's my entire right side from head to toe. My arm limitations kept me from actively using it--and that meant I wasn't moving that side of my body as much--so you can see how this has grown into a bigger issue. Overcoming this hangup I have and succeeding with weight training will be another big transformative experience, I'm sure.

I prepared a fantastic dinner tonight followed by some homemade sugar free cookies for dessert. I received the recipe in my email recently. I modified it slightly because I couldn't find sugar free chocolate chips. Instead, I used whole grain quick oats, a ripe banana, cinnamon and a 1/4 cup unsweetened cashew milk. I baked four fairly good size sugar free cookies. I had three as a dessert for 210 calories! They were pretty good. I'll likely leave out the cashew milk next time and allow them to get crispier.

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Thank you for reading and your continued support,
Strength,
Sean
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